Today I had an unexpected epiphany, in the most unexpected places....
For months now, I have been wanting to try out a new Yoga/Tai-Chi class at the gym. I had taken a class years ago in college, but nothing since then, so... I am VERY MUCH a beginner. (Downward Dog made my legs shake, that's how new I am to this stuff)
Anyway, the class was amazing. Not only did I feel rejuvenated and relaxed after the hour barefoot in a dimmed room, I actually had a spiritual experience. Now, I've heard that yoga does do that to some people, but never really believed it... until today.
So I am in the class, trying very hard to focus on the moves as well as clearing my mind of the daily grind that often floods all parts of my brain. The instructor has us go to the "salute to the sun" position. As I did it.... my epiphany hits me like a ton of bricks. As I stood there, void of stresses in my life reaching up toward the ceiling, I felt this overwhelming love from my Father in Heaven. I felt as if there was no ceiling at all and I was truly giving myself to God, talking with Him, and LETTING GO of the need to do things on my own. I found myself no longer void of thought, but giving thanks for all that I have. I felt as though for just a moment, as I posed in "salute to the sun" that it was not the sun I was saluting, but Heavenly Father. Saluting HIM who has given me so much, I realized I do not allow He who knows me best to help me in my life as much as I should. I go on day to day very independent. Not wanting the help from others... even my husband at times. I am strong willed, I like to be in control, and like to have things my way. (I've often been told I have a "big wall" around me in which it's difficult to break through.) I have gotten used to this way of life, and have in many ways forgotten how to "humble myself to the Lord".
Now as I had my head held high and arms "Saluting My God", I realized that in so many instances in life, we are either looking , straight ahead of us with the things we have to get done, or we are looking down, discouraged or tired from a long day. But how often are we looking UP? How often do we take the time to stop, breath, raise our head and arms and "salute" HE who has given us everything. HE who can heal our pain. HE who can allow us joy and HE who is there to help and guide us? When I look straight ahead or when I look down, I realize I usually forget to look UP. UP to HIM who is there for me. In reality, that is the ONLY direction my head should be... the other things fall in place on their own after that.
Wow... all that from one yoga pose... So I guess now I must say that, YES... yoga can be somewhat of a "spiritual journey". At least it was today. Much like anything I guess; when you allow your self to get rid of the daily "noise" that fills our heads and just let go. It is then that TRUTH and HUMILITY can fill your soul.
