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I'm going to try and not make every post be about Brighton, but if he doesn't get out of the terrible 3's pretty quick, we might be seeing alot of his adorably cute, knotty face.... or the blog will be dormant because I will have gone crazy!  On the positive side, he does give me a lot to blog about :)

After yesterday's flower picking, the day before's, telling me he was going to beat me up...
today he peeled the entire bunch of bananna's and left them on the floor, opened a bag of chips, ate some and then poured them on the floor, (these two events took place before 8:30 in the morning)
Grabbed a loaf of bread and took it in his room without me knowing. When I went in to put him to bed, there were 6-7 hard stale pieces of bread on the floor.  He spilled a box of candy all over the floor. He decided it would be fun to jump OVER Connor while he was laying on the floor. (I'm glad I was right there for that one), He went in the fridge and got  into a container of strawberries (I had bought about an hour before) and eat one bit of every single one and then put them in the garbage while I was helping Kaden with homework, he took out EVERY SINGLE ONE of his diapers from the drawer and started throwing them in the air.  When I told him to put them away, he said, No mom... I'm playing with them! He got up over and over and over again tonight (again)... then when Brian got home from work, he had the guts to slowly come tip toeing in with a sly grin on his face and said to Brian, "Dad, I just want to give you a hug and kiss!"   (he knows how to work it doesn't he?)

I tell you what! 2 1/2 years old is my favorite stage of all time.  3 years old is pretty great too, but you hit 3 years 3 months and life is a different story.  I'm exhausted.  This kid is going to drive me to drink.

I love you Bright, but this weeks been tough.

self control experiment 1

it's time for an experiment
I have realized the last little bit that all the things about myself that I struggle with all stems back to having no self control.

I eat what I want. I clean when I want. I shop when I want. I pray when I want. I play with my kids when I want.... etc. etc. etc.
It all boils down to the fact that I have a bunch of kids that I'm the boss for, but no one is my boss.  I have no one that I have to report to.  It's not a good thing for me.
Im a rule based learner.  I succeed and push myself when I know there is someone that will be checking in on my progress.  It's not that I need to be babysat through life, I just need to figure out how to let my better, more focused and inspired self be my boss.  I need to learn that within MYSELF I can gain the self control to overcome weaknesses and bad habits.
Soooooo.... I've decided to challenge myself to several "Self Control Experiments" over the course of this year.  In doing so, I hope to prove to myself that I have power to control the good things in my life and not let laziness have all the power.
I may not look lazy on the outer appearances with 4 little kids, having my own business and being in the primary presidency, but I am lazy with the things that matter most in growing as an individual.
I'm "lazy" in that I don't take time to go to the gym
I'm "lazy" because I let my kids watch hours of tv because it's easier
I'm "lazy" with saying my prayers because I'm too tired
I'm "lazy" so I don't read my scriptures.
I'm "lazy" to think of healthy things to cook for dinner, so I always fall back on eating out or fast unhealthy foods I can cook in minutes.
The list could go on and on.... but I don't want to focus on that anymore. I want to focus on the thought that I CAN overcome my lack of motivation to be better.  I know it will be hard, but I'm ready for the challenge. I just think I need to prove to myself that I can have self control over small and simple things, and in doing that I can overcome anything.

So, my first Self Control Experiment for 2011 is.........
No Television during the week. Only on Saturday Night.  Nothing on Sunday.