Like usual, we all have crazy weeks and days that we are just running here and there. The last few days have been like that for me. I've been working on wedding cakes (surprise, surprise) and have been trying to clean my house all week. The more I try to deep clean specific rooms, the messier the rest of the house gets. So, needless to say, it's now Thursday and my house is a dive, I'm feeling like I'm living in chaos and I just want a few hours to myself where I can regain focus and clean and organize my house, so I can feel organized again. Well, this afternoon was supposed to be my time to be able to get a handle on things.
I got home from Avery's dance class with high hopes for a peaceful 3 hour break....But as usual, it never works out as smoothly as planned.
Got Bright off to preschool.
Got Avery on the bus.
Time to put Connor to bed, but Angie needed some help, so I ran over there for about an hour. That took some of my cleaning time away, which is fine because I love being able to help her in any way since she is ALWAYS there to watch my kids or let me borrow whatever I need.
So I get home and remember that I'm supposed to go to Brightons preschool class today the last 30 minutes to talk about family rules since that's their theme this week.
Here's where I feel I'm needing to change my priorities a bit.
So, all I want to do is get my dumb house clean. Why is that such a difficult task??
I find myself playing the game in my head where you have the angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other. In my head, I'm having this little conversation with myself.
Angel Mom: "I should really go to this preschool thing for Brighton"
Devil Mom: "Just stay and clean your house"
Angel Mom: "Remember he's only little once"
Devil Mom: "Oh my gosh, he's only 3... it doesn't matter."
Angel Mom: "But I should take every opportunity to enjoy the things that matter most. "
Devil Mom: "Seriously?? Does going to a preschool full of a bunch of 3 year olds and talk about your poster of family rules that you just made up 2 minutes before he left for school really what matters most?? JUST STAY HOME AND CLEAN YOUR HOUSE ALREADY!!!!! IT'S YOUR ONLY BREAK ALL WEEK!"
Angle Mom: "But............."
Devil Mom: "It's preschool already! Geez!! He's your third kid. It's not that big of a deal. You barely get him dressed each day, why go and listen to a bunch say they need to eat all their dinner and share their toys? You can talk about rules at home with him. Go clean your damn house. "
Angel Mom: "ahhhh! Oh my!" (gasp!!) (angel mom would never use the "d" word, but Devil mom can get a potty mouth from time to time). "You are a terrible mother!" Focus on the things that matter most! Your house does not matter! Showing your kid that you have 15 minutes to be with him DOES matter.
Maybe the lesson here is for you, Devil mom.... it's not about listening to a bunch of silly rules at a preschool class, but it's about YOU showing your child that they will ALWAYS come first... no matter what." THEY are what matters most. Not your (uh, hum.... ) "darn" house."
Devil Mom: (grumble.grumble) "I know, you are right. You win. I'll go get in the car."
The moral of the story is..... Many times as a mom I am struggling with my double identity, but more times than not, I hope Angel Mom wins out when it comes to my family. Devil mom has her place too, but with the things that matter most, Angel mom needs to ALWAYS win!
Thank goodness she did today.
Thank goodness she did today.
